This morning I weighed 130 lbs. If I gained weight when I step on the scale tomorrow morning... I might have an actual mental breakdown. I don't think I could handle it.
I ate about 1622 calories today. Yes. I know. Half way into the day, I thought about lying and saying I ate when I really didn't. But I decided I would follow the plan for a week just like I said I would, otherwise my weight in exactly one week wont really do much to determine anything. One week.
I felt like I was contradicting myself all day today. "Eat it you have to." "Don't eat it you'll get fat." Now you have an excuse for Ana. You HAD to eat so she won't be mad." Conflicting thoughts like these can be more than a little confusing.
I don't even know if what I'm typing even really makes any sense. I'm tired yet energized and too full and SO hungry all at the same time. It's a very strange feeling.
Well maybe I'll be able to write down more coherent thoughts tomorrow instead of blabbing nonsense right now ;P
Until then.
~ cleosparks
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